<p>I realize now that I have been toxic, argumentative and unproductive during most of my time in social media. I should be apologizing, even to those toxic trolls that got me started for mirroring their hatred instead of showing patience and love. Satan has such power over this realm. Even though I have first hand knowledge there is a god as I have not just witnessed a miracle, I was part of it. Even knowing this, I have still behaved like an evil person. Can god forgive that? forgive myself?</p>